星期六, 十二月 26, 2009

又到年终总结时

Christmas Eve, I did not go anywhere, I just stayed at home, cooked myself. Porridge and a soup of pea tine was just good for me.

My throat pained, I drank too much the day before. In fact, in the latest 2 months, my life's full of alcohol. I was drunk for each time. I didn't mean to, but we couldn't help at the table. It is the culture of alcohol, and I really distaste it, but it can certainly drive me crazy.

Christmas Day, my throat pained more and more. I could not even say a word, or the pain might kill me. Fortunately, there were only 3 phone calls in the morning, and in the afternoon, I bought some pills. Useless, at the end of the day, I was still suffering.

In the evening, I just did the same as the Christmas Eve. The pills started to take effect, I felt better, but still pain. I slept at 22 -- the earliest time of this year.

Today, I attended a banquet for my boss's daughter's 100-day birthday. Because the twinge of my throat, I ate little and left as soon as the banquet ended. Luckily, there was no alcohol in the banquet -- many of us had drunk too much recently.

I went to a barber's in the afternoon, and had Nihon ryouri for supper with my friend. He talked, and I just listened and smiled. I found that Nihon ryouri was just right for me: no spices, delicate, but nutritious. And I just wanted such style of life.

星期日, 十二月 20, 2009

This Weekend

Another of my younger cousins got married this Saturday. I was invited and decided to the wedding. Now, 3 of my 4 younger cousins have married, and 2 of them have babies. I might be another focus at the wedding, the oldest one that even haven't got a girlfriend.

I was not understood, always. I do want a girlfriend, but I do not want a marriage, which I think is a kind of slavery. And Chairman Mao said: Courting a girl not on purpose to marriage is just hooliganism. I am not a rogue, so I am still single.

After the wedding, I felt so embarrassed, so I quit soon. I went home, stayed for a while, boring. And the I went to Chengdu to meet one of my classmates of the college. We had supper together, and had some rest. Then I suggested to do something, and we decided to go to a bar to have some drink.

We took a taxi to Yulin where bars stand together. When we walk upstairs, we were called by some acquaintances. Such an astonishment! They were all my college classmates, who we hadn't met since graduation. We went to a bar, drank and chattered a lot. There were totally 8 of us, 7 in the same class, 4 were still studying for a master's degree, 1 on his vacation, 1 just hopped from Guangzhou to Chengdu, and I just happened to be there! We laughed: this is our class meeting!

This is my city, where I was born and grew up, where I have friends and relatives and acquaintances that I can always met in streets by pure coincidence. I love this city, and at that time, or at any time, I want to back to the warm arms of the city. Pitifully, I had to go back to Chongqing within 24 hours, because of the damn job.

I slept with my classmate, and the next morning, I went home in Wenjiang. After lunch, I prepared to go to Chengdu again. The train would take off at 7:30, and the train station is far away from my home. 2 hours from my home to the train station, 1 hour waiting, and 2 hours from Chengdu to Chongqing. My home is still far away from Chongqing.

星期六, 十二月 12, 2009

今天

今天特舒服!

首先庆幸昨天逃掉了一场无聊的娱乐活动。昨晚看了《天天向上》,然后在家睡觉。今天没有一个电话,顺利睡到了自然醒——下午1点半了。

起床自己做饭做菜,把堆积了几周的衣服洗了——用完了所有衣架。上网,买了个MP4和一副耳机——当是给自己的圣诞礼物。这几年的圣诞节都是在熬通宵加班,希望今年会有所改观。

看电视,听音乐,看书,看电影...转眼又到了夜里12点。突然口渴,打开冰箱,有酒、牛奶、果汁、矿泉水...冰凉冰凉的,想来些热的。看到还有些豌豆尖,猛地想起那清爽的味道。于是我决定煮一锅汤。

一锅白水,烧开了,把豌豆尖都放下去,10秒钟后关电,起锅。那个味道太诱人了,没有任何别的,就是一股股的清香。这让我想起小时候在田野里摘黄瓜或者拔萝卜,不洗,擦一擦就入口,那样的感觉10几年没有过了。热气腾腾的一锅,菜还是半熟的,汤已经是碧绿的了,我趁热吃掉了那些菜,几口就喝掉了那一锅汤。

爽!这才是生活嘛!没有额外的工作,没有女人,没有社交。洗衣服做饭,看书看电影看电视,写写博客,也很快乐!主要是自由,我的时间就应该我自己安排。

谁说哥怕寂寞?哥怕的是不自由。哥已经习惯了寂寞,哥追求的是自由。

Enjoy.

[读书]潜规则

先前度过吴思的《血酬定律》,觉得作者说的非常有道理。那时候我还不知道,如今流行的"潜规则"一词就是他首先提出来的。前段时间《潜规则》再版,我才知道作者是吴思。于是我把《潜规则》也买来拜读了一番。作者讲的是历史,但是读起来句句都是说的现实。难怪"潜规则"一词能够流行起来。

读书的时候我们总是被教育:赶上了好时候,要珍惜!其实中国几千年来就没有发生本质的变化。尽管法治在不断完善,但大行其道的仍然是潜规则。最近在学车(虽然报名3个月了,理论还没有学完),每个人都告诉我,上车的时候给师父散烟,效果会好很多。每个驾校都信誓旦旦的称自己廉洁,不收学员好处,不训骂学员。实际的情况是,学员给教练好处,会少挨骂。这就是潜规则,没有教练要求这么做,但是学员都明白。你说送一包烟算贿赂吗?没那么严重。你说收烟的人不会对送烟的人好点?自然而然的事情,都是人之常情。

读书的时候,我总是痛恨那些旁门左道,读完这本书,有一些释然。虽然作者也不赞同潜规则,但是作者把潜规则产生的原因分析的很清楚:在中国这样的社会里,不产生潜规则就怪了。不是人心善恶的问题,实在是大环境造就。大环境还在,这些规则理所当然就在啊。所以,在中国生活就不得不顺应潜规则。中国人民几千年都挨过来了,我还有什么好痛恨的?

回头打听打听买什么价位的烟合适,理论考过了就买几包备用。

语言

上个月的最后一天,新闻上说:上面决定,W·hj不再担任重庆市长。呵呵,重庆人民都知道,W市长前几天自己说的"拔出萝卜,带出泥"是句大实话。

插曲:这个月的第一天,一大早起床,我就听到外面锣鼓喧天,欢呼雀跃。我很惊讶,重庆人民性子也太直了...出门一看,原来是欢送老兵回家。

几天后,新闻又说:W市长是因为年龄原因主动辞职的。呵呵,这个重庆人民也知道。

But, on the same day, I read a news on Google News: The mayor of Chongqing was fired by... I marveled at the wise of Chinese language.

星期六, 十二月 05, 2009

house & villa

上午陪一个朋友去买房。沙区中等偏上的一个盘,靠近铁轨和垃圾站,均价7k。我也曾经看过这个盘,但是小户型都是单配,我不喜欢这样的户型,而且价格我也觉得比较高,所以没有考虑。但是现场买房的人一拨接着一拨,百数间房子片刻抢完。我的朋友还是走了点后门才抢到一套的。看这个架势,我真不对房市乐观——当然开发商可乐了。

下午,和同事一起去拜访一位前同事。进小区时就让我们震撼了:真是花园一样的环境,而且都是一栋栋的小楼,很大一片。从门口到前同事家里,开车都走了几分钟,估计走路的话起码20分钟。这就是传说中的别墅区。以前只是远远的看过,这次走这么近,感觉是不一样的。走进别墅,只能用震撼来说了。同去的同事房子已经很不错了,已经是高尚住宅了,但在别墅里还是自叹不如。楼上楼下,估计总面积不下200平,顺便问了一下装修,答曰"58万"。惊愕!这个数目可以买三套我那朋友上午买的小户型了!也许你觉得拥有这么一套别墅已经很了不起了,但是你要是了解我这位前同事总共拥有5套住房,你恐怕只有目瞪口呆了。

你说在同一家公司上班的,差距咋就这么大呢?的确,大家的收入差不多,但这位前同事在离职前就已经拥有5套住房了。花钱的方式不一样啊!买房子的时候的确是带了一屁股债,但是现在好了,甲方的工资已经不菲,外加另4套房子的租金收入——自己又住别墅,虽然每月仍然在还贷,但是生活品质是绝对不一样的。跳出了老鼠赛跑的恶性循环,让资产为自己创造现金流入!

回来的路上,望着重庆富人区山坡上一栋栋别墅,接着是一片片高尚住宅,感慨!

星期四, 十二月 03, 2009

星期二, 十二月 01, 2009

[读书]色即是空

这个词的流行归功于一部韩国电影。我不知道韩文原名叫做什么,只知道中文名是《色即是空》,英文名是Sex is zero。于是当我们有兄弟求色无果时,我们便会劝慰:色即是空。
 
其实我们这些俗人误解了这个词多年。我以前也曾纳闷:佛教的词,怎么老是和Sex打交道?昨晚看《般若波罗密多心经》才知道"色即是空"的"色"不是指Sex,而是泛指一切物质的东西,一切有形的东西。"色即是空"是说这些看起来实实在在的东西实际上也是虚无的。
 
"色即是空"后面紧跟了一句"空即是色",比如一个水杯,你说它是空的吧,它里面其实装满了空气;你说它是满的吧,它还能装进去水......所以说有色才有空,有空才有色。颇有些易经的思想。
 
前段时间,心情颇为浮躁,整天做不完的繁杂工作。我还不知不觉的消失了半天——手机没电,我睡到了中午。发现没有我的世界还是这个世界,没有做的事情,还是在等着我去做,头脑一团糨糊,不知如何是好。遇到烦人的事情,只想逃避,却无处可逃...
 
于是拾起这部《般若波罗蜜多心经》。以前曾经读过,却没有了解其大意,昨晚读了一遍,也只是了解其字面意思。尽管如此,仍然纠正了我多年来的误解。一部两百多字的经,包含了佛教的核心理念,"能除一切苦"。只读一遍显然是不够的。这部经书就放在床头了。

10000米(2)

今天再次跑了一个10000米。
1、总共用时77分56秒,比上次进步了一点点——每次进步一点点就是好事。
2、看着计数器从10000跳到0,感觉真爽!
3、I felt my legs again.
4、《Wish I Had An Angel》仍然是最合适的跑步音乐。